these four walls are closing in more and more everyday....if i could think, i would know what song that's from....but i'm listening to worship with kutless and it's hard to think of a song when you're listening to other music...
anyways! two straight days cooped up in my apartment and i'm going crazy! i have my english exam tomorrow. and more days cooped up after that. today i had planned to study in the park, but the rain prevented me. i guess i haven't really been cooped up, yesterday my sister took me to moxie's for my birthday! that was nice, but we were incredibly full afterwards! and tonight eva (yay, she's home!) did stop by to introduce me to her friend....so life is not all these four walls....but ugh, i'm ready to get out!
are you ever in that place where you know exactly what you should do, and you know you're being lazy and you still avoid it? right now, i sense God everywhere around me. i can hear the Holy Spirit whispering to me, but i don't listen! i'd really appreciate prayer. my head says the words, my head tells my heart to listen, my head tells all of me to get off my butt....and then i cheap out! i take the easy way out. is it that i'm not being challenged enough or is it that i refuse to be challenged? a friend of mine (wise girl..) says anything she loves is something that has scared and challenged her. i can't say that. i'm never really scared of anything. maybe i'm scared of being scared. maybe i'm so tired of studying my mind is going spastic! but really, vulnerability is essential to love and relationship and intimacy with Jesus. thanks for listening to me being vulnerable.
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