the 'more to come' came

well, it's been awhile since those last thoughts passed through my head, but here's the reason behind it. about 2 weeks ago i came to the point where i was fed up with myself. fed up with the delicate balance of wanting a boyfriend sometime, but knowing i was okay without and appreciating/being attracted to different things in different boys, but again, knowing i wouldn't really want to be pursued by said boys. what to do with all my desires?? then Jesus spoke (i love it when he does this....then again, sometimes it kicks me in the head) and simply told me to date him. now i've told myself, read to myself, over and over again that Jesus IS MY LOVER. the reasons i am attracted to any guy are the very things HE IS. but it never quite sinks in. and i'm not saying it has yet, but here's what i discovered. every attribute that attracts me makes me want to spend more time with that person. now, this is very elementary. i love Jesus. i can choose to date him, be his girlfriend. and while i can appreicate the (for example) musuclar arms of some random guy, my Jesus has just as beautiful arms! he does! and i see that (not that alone, but this is my little illustration) and i can date him! this beautiful Son of Man who loves me, not just the me i pretend to be, who is all the strength i need, want and desire. passionate pursuit? yes, in my Jesus. His arms are all i need.