sometimes i have to wonder at my decision making skills. annie put a little note on our white board in the apartment. it says "marcia, make your own decisions!"

i know my family thinks i'm crazy when i find something i want to do that requires more money than i have, or makes less than i need, but i dream and talk about it all the time anyway. and then somehow, it all works out. even when i'm disappointed. i didn't get to go to jen's wedding, but i'm glad i could dream about it and imagine it. i'm not really much of a risk-taker, so my dreaming nature doesn't seem to actually fit that part of me. but yet, this summer, i just up and decided to work at a camp i've never spent a summer at. that's a risk and a huge decision!! and it's just now really hitting me that i'm doing this! i'm not nervous, not at all. but it's funny how hard it is for me to decide some things, while others i just let happen!

a few months ago, i was planning to make a lot of money this summer, since i didn't last summer. but here i am, working at camp all summer. and i'm so excited!! one of the things that bothers me most about life is not being able to understand where the other person is coming from. i want to help people, but it's so hard to understand them sometimes!!! and then there are times like today, where i don't understand myself either!!

i'm glad i have Jesus to do the judging. i'm glad i can trust Him. i'm glad he knows how to make decisions!