paaaaaaaper

sometimes i surprise myself with what i will do to figure something out.

i used to never really get embarrassed. sure, i did embarrassing things, but it didn't faze me. i'm okay with myself and my silliness. recently though, i have done more than one embarrassing thing that actually made my face turn red. i'm still okay with laughing at myself, so all is well, but it is strange to feel embarrassed, since i usually don't.

i have this policy that everything i think ought to be able to be shared with anyone. but just now i did something which i find hilarious, but i can't tell anyone! cuz it'd be, number one - embarrassing. aaaand that's pretty much it. actually, those who know me very well would only shake their heads and say 'ohmygoodness marcia - you really are naive and crazy'

hmmm. so now i sit alone in my apartment, laughing and chuckling to myself, viewing my stupidity as not immaturity or even stupidity, but rather silliness. a sign that i enjoy life, i'm curious and i like laughing and figuring things out.

and also for those of you who know me well ....yes, i will probably not keep you in suspense much longer. it's so fun to laugh with people that i don't mind if it takes making a fool out of myself to do it!

speaking of foolish, i'm procrastinating writing my paper. i wish you could hear the song "undignified" right now. if you want to follow the links....go here. then click on the lime cd.