thinking about my title. the desire. it's my belief that what you desire shapes your life. today as i was flicking through channels over lunch i saw "the fabulous life of justin timberlake". and i was shocked by what i saw. the amount of extravagance, the lack of consideration for others, be it directly or indirectly and the total self-absorption. it made me feel dirty. i kept thinking "why would anyone want to even own 500 pairs of runners? why would anyone want to have so many different girls and have stores shut everyone else out so they can shop?" truth is, i don't know. i suppose myself in that situation could be trapped by the materialism too. i thank God that his grace has changed me. obviously, if you desire material fulfillment and recognition, you can get it. what you desire shapes how you live your life. even if your selfish desires aren't fulfilled to the extreme like mr. timberlake there, the striving for those desires will shape how you live. is my desire what i really want it to be? i know that sounds redundant or something, but really. when i look at my life, the things i do, what is driving them? what am i investing my time in? because that will tell you what you desire. you can only surrender completely to God when you desire to believe - passionately, as nothing else you desire. and i want my life to be surrendered to God, for his purpose.
i'm so thankful for the truth that has been evidenced in my life. for the friends i have. holly, your comments arent' working, so i'll tell you here. i am SO GLAD you came out for the weekend, and i love you too. i think i found the music i want at my wedding - of course, this is far in the future, but nonetheless, it is incredible music. i even walked across my apartment in my sweats pretending to be gorgeous and radiant. then i thought, i also want this at my funeral. bride of Christ!! the radiance in that is something only hinted at in earthly relationships and intimacy! here's a quote about love my cousin sent me in one of those mass forwards...but i found it special, becuase without trust, there can be no true love or intimacy. and that is the desire of my heart - intimacy with the Trinity.
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
can't wait for heaven and the name that is mine alone from Jesus himself!
2 comments:
you're very true about your desires shaping your life. materialism is a hard trap not to fall into. things that you buy give you tempary joy, and it's hard not to lean on that. i'm trying to find the balance between taking care of God's temple (and dressing beautifully) and not falling into such a trap. defenitly something i think we all will always have to struggle with... i mean who doesn't like a new pair of shoes. hehe
Marcia,
Just "stumbled" upon your blog. What a great post! That is so true! After all, God says in His word "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." My prayer every day is that my desires will be His desires.
Enjoyed your blog.
In Him,
Cindy-Lou
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