after writing my mennonite studies exam, i braced myself to go and get my final paper. i was so sure i bombed it, and i was trying to prepare myself for a C+ or something of the sort. so i took the paper, smiled at my prof, and headed out the door without looking at the mark. then, as i walked down the hall and checked my mark i began to laugh. yes, out loud. by myself.....i got an A+!!!!! i was completely floored. but happy!!!
tonight a dear friend of mine came over to go for a walk. as we walked and snapped some "interesting" pictures on the river and at the legislature, we also talked. and through our talk, i learned something about myself. God is so good and always faithful! i am so very happy to say that one my struggles with being interested in a certain guy is OVER. i was so concerned that i liked the idea of him, not him, and it was distracting me from enjoying my frienships. over the last weeks, i'd been slowly letting go of it....and with our conversation tonight, it was confirmed that it has been let go! i am no longer bound by the fear that if i let go of my idea/ideals, nothing better will come along. i was reminded that there are more fish in the sea. and i can completely trust in my Jesus that love is not something i will have to live without. while it is fun sometimes to be interested in or attracted to a boy, or have a crush, it is also fun to not have that worry! i feel so good right now. i wish i could bottle this feeling for next week's exams!!
oh and to top off my lovely evening, we bought some icecream and sat on the stoop of our apartment building, devouring 2 litres of icecream between 4 girls. looking a little like fools, but enjoying making those walking by feel foolish for looking at us as if we were crazy!
how i feel right now...
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