sunburned and contemplative

between who i am and who i want to be.

the grace of God is something i cannot comprehend. maybe that's why i have a hard time giving grace to everyone in my own life. these last weeks at camp i have been affirmed, encouraged, frustrated and confused. my own will has won out far too many times and yet i feel the presence of the Holy Spirit so acutely. it is so frustrating when i know how i am reacting to situations and i know God's will for me in that situation and i still do what i know i shouldn't. and then i ALSO know that God has given me power to overcome! the same power that raised Christ from the dead is at work in ME - i want to live in that power and authority! the grace of God is so incredible that it allows ME to live a life i couldn't on my own. yikes...i am so not worthy. Jesus, you are worthy!!! you ALONE are holy and worthy of worship.

i must also say that sometimes i get so excited that Jesus is coming that i just have to jump up and down and smile and tell people that Jesus is coming back!!! woohoo!!! lisa and ang, thanks for putting up with my craziness at 1 in the morning!!