God can raise the dead

but do i have faith?

there are a lot of dead, ugly and dark things in my heart. things i have not dealt with, issues i have ignored and things that i don't want to deal with. things that Christ can redeem. he has taken my life from the kingdom of darkness into the kingdom of light. he is the king of restoration - it's what he loves to do. but i'm not letting him close enough to do it. i'm scared to be vulnerable enough to allow Christ to resurrect those dark things. he can. i know he can. but do i have faith that he can?

i'm in the process of stepping out in faith and believing things can change even though i feel like i should hide myself. the funny thing is that faith is enabled by God himself. so unless i surrender to him and allow him to awaken faith in me, i have nothing. i can't just "step out" on my own strength, in faith. the whole "stepping out in faith" requires my vulnerability to Christ and my acknowledgment that i have no faith. simple, confusing and foolish to the world. wisdom in God. i don't want to live by the world's understnading anymore.

"come and unlock my heart and move me to love you"